the abandoned blog.

i am back now.

i am about to break down.
in fact breaking down.

work is killing me.
i kept asking myself isn't work just a part of life.
why am i so bothered by it.

but that is me isnt it?
that is Meishan.

look, face it.
i am just stubborn.
i simply love challenges so much that never will i take the easy way out.

i kept telling myself to hang on.
i kept trying to get myself inspired by small little things ard me.

take this World Cup for example.
I keep telling myself that i will be like the weaker team.
like how Switzerland can beat Spain.

but i am really tired.
tired of going against what's plan for me.

when i look ard me.
sometimes i just see myself.
or rather a failed me.

or am i expecting too much.

when can i pick myself up again?

regain that confidence and smile my way through life?